~ In Search of Love ~

How much of my life have I spent
vying for your love?
I changed my appearance
I changed my actions
I even changed how I felt,
always unsure
if you loved me.

But how could you love me
when you didn’t even know me
because I never knew myself
as I shape-shifted
like a crazy chameleon
in response to you
in response to the world around me.

I finally realized
your love was never the issue
for it was my love of self
I was in search of;
and now that I know who I Am
it matters not
if you love me or not.

For I am deeply enthralled
in a joyful passionate love affair
with my Divine Self
who lives within me
who is always here for me
who has always known
all of Who I Am.